1 00:00:05,000 --> 00:00:15,000 Sous-titres par la Fisher Team 2 00:00:15,000 --> 00:00:25,000 Transcript: Raceman 3 00:00:25,000 --> 00:00:35,000 Synchronisation : EZ, Occeane 4 00:00:35,000 --> 00:00:45,000 Traduction : Sylvain, Petrushka, Paqui 5 00:00:45,000 --> 00:00:55,000 Relecture et corrections finales : Guzo 6 00:00:55,000 --> 00:01:30,000 http://www.sixfeetunder-france.com http://www.forom.com 7 00:01:32,000 --> 00:01:36,000 Saison 5 Episode 10 "All alone" 8 00:02:05,634 --> 00:02:07,634 It's crazy. 9 00:02:10,534 --> 00:02:13,667 And I get there and guess what ? 10 00:02:13,734 --> 00:02:16,601 There is no death ! 11 00:02:16,667 --> 00:02:19,567 Wasn't it a relief when you realized that ? 12 00:02:19,634 --> 00:02:22,267 Nate ! Thank god ! 13 00:03:18,267 --> 00:03:22,334 Maya ? 14 00:03:23,667 --> 00:03:25,367 Hey, honey. 15 00:03:25,434 --> 00:03:27,767 Where's my daddy ? 16 00:03:29,067 --> 00:03:30,968 Um... 17 00:03:32,000 --> 00:03:34,100 Daddy's not here. 18 00:03:35,434 --> 00:03:38,901 Ooh, I bet they love it ! 19 00:03:40,300 --> 00:03:42,067 Hi, greg. 20 00:03:42,133 --> 00:03:45,334 Don't worry. Whatever it was we will pay you for it. 21 00:03:45,400 --> 00:03:46,701 It's okay. 22 00:03:52,300 --> 00:03:54,133 Did you sleep at all ? 23 00:03:57,667 --> 00:04:00,100 The bo aren't up yet, are they ? 24 00:04:00,167 --> 00:04:02,634 I'll take care of breakfast. 25 00:04:02,701 --> 00:04:05,467 Why don't you go back to bed and try and get a little sleep ? 26 00:04:05,534 --> 00:04:07,801 I can't. I have to pick up nate's body. 27 00:04:09,400 --> 00:04:11,100 Can't rico do it ? 28 00:04:11,167 --> 00:04:13,400 I should do it, keith. He's my brother. 29 00:04:13,467 --> 00:04:16,434 - Well, maybe it's too much. - It's not. 30 00:04:16,501 --> 00:04:21,033 So right after breakfast you have to take the boys to get suits for the funeral. 31 00:04:21,100 --> 00:04:23,067 You know, I can be with you today. 32 00:04:23,133 --> 00:04:25,100 I mean, it doesn't matter what the boys wear. 33 00:04:25,167 --> 00:04:27,801 It does matter to me. 34 00:04:27,868 --> 00:04:30,400 I'd start at nordstrom's. They're having a sale. 35 00:04:30,467 --> 00:04:32,400 It's okay if the sleeves are a little long, 36 00:04:32,467 --> 00:04:34,667 But if you really need alterations... 37 00:04:34,734 --> 00:04:36,767 Take them to lester's on vine. 38 00:04:36,834 --> 00:04:40,234 Tell them that you need it first thing tomorrow. 39 00:04:40,300 --> 00:04:43,334 Say david fisher sent you. I wrote down the address. 40 00:05:06,133 --> 00:05:09,133 I didn't know he wanted his organs harvested. 41 00:05:11,400 --> 00:05:14,367 His wife approved it. Is there a problem ? 42 00:05:15,367 --> 00:05:17,734 No, of course not. 43 00:05:20,667 --> 00:05:24,033 - It'll save a lot of people's lives. - I know. 44 00:05:43,534 --> 00:05:45,534 Oh, fuck ! 45 00:05:45,601 --> 00:05:47,801 You want one ? 46 00:05:47,868 --> 00:05:49,934 I got them from your brother, but they suck. 47 00:05:55,234 --> 00:05:56,501 Stupid cunt ! 48 00:05:58,467 --> 00:06:01,100 You want me to make you something else ? 49 00:06:01,167 --> 00:06:02,968 Yogurt ? 50 00:06:03,033 --> 00:06:05,033 Oatmeal ? 51 00:06:07,133 --> 00:06:09,000 How about a scotch and soda ? 52 00:06:09,067 --> 00:06:11,334 Is it too soon for another pill ? 53 00:06:11,400 --> 00:06:14,000 - When did you take your last one ? - Three hours ago. 54 00:06:14,067 --> 00:06:15,767 Sure, go ahead. 55 00:06:15,834 --> 00:06:18,200 Don't worry. If you get addicted... 56 00:06:18,601 --> 00:06:21,934 I have a lot of experience getting people through withdrawal. 57 00:06:26,567 --> 00:06:28,234 Mm. 58 00:06:29,367 --> 00:06:32,067 - You can have it all. - Mm. 59 00:06:33,434 --> 00:06:34,801 I wish you were a food medicator. 60 00:06:37,267 --> 00:06:39,868 When my second husband died... 61 00:06:39,934 --> 00:06:42,968 I couldn't stop eating for an entire year. 62 00:06:43,033 --> 00:06:45,734 It really helped. 63 00:06:47,434 --> 00:06:48,801 Hey there ! 64 00:06:48,868 --> 00:06:50,767 - Hi. - There's coffee ! 65 00:06:50,834 --> 00:06:51,334 Oh, no thanks. I think I've already had too much coffee today. 66 00:06:55,133 --> 00:06:56,634 I made you some eggs. 67 00:06:56,701 --> 00:06:59,033 You see how much your mom enjoyed hers. 68 00:06:59,100 --> 00:07:02,200 - Oh, thank you, but I'm fine. 69 00:07:02,267 --> 00:07:05,467 Why didn't you call dr. Paolo ? 70 00:07:05,534 --> 00:07:08,033 Mom, I told you he was out of town. 71 00:07:08,100 --> 00:07:09,467 But this was an emergency. 72 00:07:09,534 --> 00:07:11,968 I don't understand why no one even spoke to him. 73 00:07:12,033 --> 00:07:14,501 They thought he was going to be fine. 74 00:07:14,567 --> 00:07:17,434 He was talking to us, mom. 75 00:07:17,501 --> 00:07:18,968 He really seemed okay. 76 00:07:19,033 --> 00:07:20,767 But none of it makes any sense ! 77 00:07:20,834 --> 00:07:22,734 Sometimes things just don't. 78 00:07:25,467 --> 00:07:28,367 David, is there anything i can do to, like, help you ? 79 00:07:28,434 --> 00:07:30,234 What do you mean ? Why would I need any help ? 80 00:07:30,300 --> 00:07:33,234 I just mean, like, dealing. 81 00:07:33,300 --> 00:07:34,901 I can deal, thank you. 82 00:07:34,968 --> 00:07:37,901 You can help me call people. 83 00:07:37,968 --> 00:07:39,801 - The list is in the office. - Okay. 84 00:07:39,868 --> 00:07:43,567 - When's the service ? - Tomorrow at noon. 85 00:07:43,634 --> 00:07:47,334 I think we should wait a few days so people have time to get here. 86 00:07:48,567 --> 00:07:50,734 Nate didn't want to embalmed. 87 00:07:50,801 --> 00:07:53,234 - How do you know ? - He told me. 88 00:07:53,300 --> 00:07:55,267 Twice. 89 00:07:56,634 --> 00:07:59,467 But we're going to- 90 00:07:59,534 --> 00:08:01,334 What ? 91 00:08:02,434 --> 00:08:04,534 Nothing. Never mind. 92 00:08:10,367 --> 00:08:15,634 This was the pre-Need he filled out before the first surgery. 93 00:08:15,701 --> 00:08:18,133 But that was three years ago. 94 00:08:18,200 --> 00:08:20,133 He said he wanted a cremation 95 00:08:20,200 --> 00:08:24,534 And rabbi ari hoffman to do the service. 96 00:08:24,601 --> 00:08:28,000 She was supposed to marry us the first time. 97 00:08:28,067 --> 00:08:30,667 Oh, right. 98 00:08:30,734 --> 00:08:33,000 But just last week 99 00:08:33,067 --> 00:08:36,901 He said he wanted a "green funeral." 100 00:08:36,968 --> 00:08:39,400 What's that ? 101 00:08:39,467 --> 00:08:43,367 It's an environmentally, uh... 102 00:08:43,434 --> 00:08:45,934 Friendly process. It's natural. 103 00:08:46,000 --> 00:08:50,133 The body is placed in the ground, wrapped in a shroud. 104 00:08:50,200 --> 00:08:52,567 No embalming or casket. 105 00:08:52,634 --> 00:08:56,133 And people often purchase a resting place 106 00:08:56,200 --> 00:08:59,167 In a designated park kind of area 107 00:08:59,234 --> 00:09:02,000 As a way to conserve the land. 108 00:09:02,067 --> 00:09:04,133 Well, that sounds nice. 109 00:09:05,601 --> 00:09:08,834 Officially, we're supposed to honor the signed document, 110 00:09:08,901 --> 00:09:11,133 But I think he... 111 00:09:11,200 --> 00:09:14,567 Intended to change the pre-Need and just never- 112 00:09:17,234 --> 00:09:19,567 Didn't have time to. 113 00:09:21,767 --> 00:09:24,701 So it's up to you as his spouse 114 00:09:24,767 --> 00:09:27,133 To decide what you think he would have wanted. 115 00:09:27,200 --> 00:09:29,167 I have no idea. 116 00:09:29,234 --> 00:09:31,701 No fucking idea. 117 00:09:31,767 --> 00:09:34,801 I mean, rabbi ari ? 118 00:09:34,868 --> 00:09:38,934 And now, apparently, he is some kind of quaker. 119 00:09:41,334 --> 00:09:43,200 Was, I mean. 120 00:09:45,467 --> 00:09:48,467 You know, maybe we should just ask maggie what he would have wanted. 121 00:09:48,534 --> 00:09:50,901 What does maggie have to do with it ? 122 00:09:50,968 --> 00:09:53,501 Are you making decisions about nate's funeral ? 123 00:09:53,567 --> 00:09:56,501 We're just discussing what he might have wanted. 124 00:09:56,567 --> 00:09:59,901 Doesn't my opinion mean something ? He's my son. 125 00:09:59,968 --> 00:10:02,834 I - I didn't think you'd want to talk about it. 126 00:10:02,901 --> 00:10:06,934 I want him buried in the family plot next to his father. 127 00:10:07,000 --> 00:10:09,667 Well, he wanted to be buried in a nature preserve. 128 00:10:09,734 --> 00:10:13,367 - But I want him next to me. - Well, then you can go there too then. 129 00:10:29,400 --> 00:10:31,067 Hey, david. 130 00:10:31,133 --> 00:10:33,534 You okay ? 131 00:10:37,534 --> 00:10:40,133 I know. I still can't believe it. 132 00:10:40,200 --> 00:10:44,400 It's like... now we just go on with everything ? 133 00:10:44,467 --> 00:10:46,801 That's what people do. 134 00:10:46,868 --> 00:10:49,834 Yeah, I guess so. 135 00:10:49,901 --> 00:10:51,868 I guess so. 136 00:10:51,934 --> 00:10:54,534 Uh, so, um... 137 00:10:54,601 --> 00:10:56,133 Look, I'll, um... 138 00:10:56,200 --> 00:10:59,801 - I'll take care of the felix pickup. - What ? 139 00:10:59,868 --> 00:11:01,234 The guy at the nursing home. 140 00:11:01,300 --> 00:11:03,334 I'll take care of the whole funeral. 141 00:11:03,400 --> 00:11:05,133 You don't have to worry about anything. 142 00:11:05,200 --> 00:11:07,033 We can't take that funeral. 143 00:11:07,100 --> 00:11:10,901 - What do you mean ? - I don't want anyone else here during nate's service. 144 00:11:10,968 --> 00:11:13,033 David, they have a pre-Need. 145 00:11:13,100 --> 00:11:15,400 - They paid for the funeral 10 years ago. 146 00:11:15,467 --> 00:11:17,634 Rico, please, just work it out. 147 00:11:24,934 --> 00:11:27,133 Maya, eat your apple sauce. 148 00:11:27,200 --> 00:11:28,667 No. 149 00:11:28,734 --> 00:11:31,801 Well, you have to eat something ! 150 00:11:34,000 --> 00:11:36,267 I'm sorry, honey. 151 00:11:41,234 --> 00:11:43,501 I'm so sorry. I, um... 152 00:11:43,567 --> 00:11:45,801 I knocked over your plant. 153 00:11:45,868 --> 00:11:48,434 I'll replace it. 154 00:11:52,100 --> 00:11:53,901 What are you doing here ? 155 00:11:53,968 --> 00:11:55,901 I though you might need- 156 00:11:56,901 --> 00:11:58,434 Um... 157 00:12:01,934 --> 00:12:04,667 I made you guys a quiche. 158 00:12:04,734 --> 00:12:04,767 I didn't want to bother you. 159 00:12:06,901 --> 00:12:08,501 I was just gonna leave it. 160 00:12:08,567 --> 00:12:10,567 But, uh, then... 161 00:12:12,367 --> 00:12:14,601 Oh, brenda, I'm so sorry. 162 00:12:14,667 --> 00:12:16,501 What is this, some kind of quaker thing ? 163 00:12:16,567 --> 00:12:18,400 You fuck someone's husband to death 164 00:12:18,467 --> 00:12:21,534 And then you bring them a quiche ? 165 00:12:21,601 --> 00:12:24,901 Would you please just admit it ? 166 00:12:24,968 --> 00:12:26,934 It would be such relief to know 167 00:12:27,000 --> 00:12:29,567 When my marriage turned into a total fucking lie. 168 00:12:29,634 --> 00:12:33,033 - Oh, it's not like that. - Like what ? God ! 169 00:12:34,467 --> 00:12:36,901 It's not like anything you're imagining. 170 00:12:36,968 --> 00:12:37,667 Nate loved you. 171 00:12:38,334 --> 00:12:41,300 I don't need you to tell me how my husband felt about me ! 172 00:12:41,367 --> 00:12:43,868 Even if he was pissed off at me, 173 00:12:43,934 --> 00:12:47,634 He certainly wasn't in love with you even if he said he was. 174 00:12:47,701 --> 00:12:50,467 Nate could be very convincing that way. 175 00:12:52,634 --> 00:12:55,234 But all he ever wanted was someone who could make him feel 176 00:12:55,300 --> 00:12:58,801 Like he was a better man than he actually was. 177 00:12:58,868 --> 00:13:01,801 Could've been anyone. 178 00:13:20,300 --> 00:13:23,200 Why didn't I er get a stupid cell phone ? 179 00:13:23,267 --> 00:13:25,334 'Cause you hate 'em. 180 00:13:25,400 --> 00:13:29,200 Well, if I had one like every other person in the world... 181 00:13:29,267 --> 00:13:31,300 It wouldn't have saved him. 182 00:13:42,033 --> 00:13:45,467 Why did claire have to make me go get my hair cut ? 183 00:13:46,767 --> 00:13:49,567 I've been cutting my own hair for years. 184 00:13:49,634 --> 00:13:52,734 Why did she have to tease me about it now ? 185 00:13:54,167 --> 00:13:56,834 When did you have your last pill, hon ? 186 00:13:56,901 --> 00:13:59,167 I - I don't want another pill. 187 00:14:00,934 --> 00:14:03,801 I want my son. 188 00:14:03,868 --> 00:14:06,067 I want my beautiful son. 189 00:14:07,567 --> 00:14:09,567 I know. 190 00:14:13,667 --> 00:14:16,667 I know you do. 191 00:14:32,501 --> 00:14:35,334 This wasn't supposed to happen. 192 00:14:37,734 --> 00:14:40,834 - I know. - Nate ? 193 00:14:40,901 --> 00:14:43,267 Nate's the one who matters. 194 00:14:43,334 --> 00:14:45,968 You know, I love you, son, 195 00:14:46,033 --> 00:14:48,767 But nate - Nate's my little m. 196 00:14:50,601 --> 00:14:52,501 I'm a man, dad. 197 00:14:52,567 --> 00:14:55,234 Oh, don't get your ass in a knot. You know what I mean. 198 00:14:55,300 --> 00:14:57,181 You were the one we thought we could lose. 199 00:14:57,322 --> 00:15:00,176 What, with aids and picking up strange men on the side of the road, 200 00:15:00,345 --> 00:15:03,867 And screwing a whore with no condom. You know, all that sort of thing. 201 00:15:04,167 --> 00:15:06,895 You've been begging for some kind of annihilation your entire life. 202 00:15:06,914 --> 00:15:09,669 - That's not true. - It's like a cosmic joke. 203 00:15:10,679 --> 00:15:11,552 Oh, god. 204 00:15:11,590 --> 00:15:12,934 Your poor mother. 205 00:15:13,012 --> 00:15:15,467 She-She must be going insane. 206 00:15:15,580 --> 00:15:17,200 He was her favorite. 207 00:15:17,331 --> 00:15:20,543 - Who was yours ? - Claire has always been my little gal. 208 00:15:20,571 --> 00:15:23,501 - You know how that is. - You barely even knew Claire. 209 00:15:23,595 --> 00:15:25,595 Pretty little heartbreaker. 210 00:15:25,708 --> 00:15:27,210 Just like her mom... 211 00:15:27,332 --> 00:15:29,656 Before she cracked. 212 00:15:29,919 --> 00:15:33,717 - You make me sick. - The feeling's mutual, cupcake. 213 00:15:36,121 --> 00:15:38,271 Come on, Durrell, where are you ? 214 00:15:38,516 --> 00:15:40,224 All right, I'm coming. I'm coming. 215 00:15:42,891 --> 00:15:45,055 No. No, no, you have to wear your new shoes. 216 00:15:45,074 --> 00:15:47,037 The pants drag on the floor with those. 217 00:15:47,074 --> 00:15:49,455 Just put them on. We've go to drop off something at my boss's 218 00:15:49,492 --> 00:15:50,671 Before we go to the fisher's. 219 00:15:51,084 --> 00:15:53,525 Look, I'm telling you the pants are too long. 220 00:15:54,511 --> 00:15:56,351 All right, maybe we can get them hemmed on the way. 221 00:15:56,379 --> 00:15:59,055 But then we have to leave now. 222 00:16:09,868 --> 00:16:11,868 David ? 223 00:16:15,529 --> 00:16:17,087 Excuse me. 224 00:16:17,529 --> 00:16:20,355 I'm sure Brenda brought some clothes, but I... 225 00:16:22,072 --> 00:16:25,443 I happened to see his - His best suit, 226 00:16:25,584 --> 00:16:27,194 Fresh from the cleaner. 227 00:16:27,260 --> 00:16:30,213 - We're not having a viewing. - Why not ? 228 00:16:30,269 --> 00:16:34,147 Mom, I told you he didn't want to be embalmed or made up. 229 00:16:35,171 --> 00:16:36,959 But people need a viewing. 230 00:16:37,147 --> 00:16:39,734 You can look at him now. 231 00:17:43,368 --> 00:17:45,434 When he came out of the surgery 232 00:17:45,593 --> 00:17:48,312 What exactly did the doctor say ? 233 00:17:49,739 --> 00:17:52,334 Mom, I've told you this 100 times. 234 00:17:52,438 --> 00:17:55,326 Well, you haven't been clear about it. 235 00:17:55,504 --> 00:17:56,936 If he said everything was fine 236 00:17:56,973 --> 00:18:00,049 And nate was awake and talking, then... 237 00:18:01,401 --> 00:18:03,481 Clearly something went terribly wrong ! 238 00:18:03,565 --> 00:18:05,767 What, do you think I killed him ? 239 00:18:06,603 --> 00:18:07,875 Is that what you're trying to get me to say ? 240 00:18:07,903 --> 00:18:10,588 - How dare you speak to me that way ! - How dare you ! 241 00:18:10,607 --> 00:18:13,200 I lost him too, mom ! 242 00:18:14,011 --> 00:18:17,650 All you've been doing is accusing me of doing the wrong thing ! 243 00:18:17,875 --> 00:18:19,834 At least I was there ! 244 00:18:30,368 --> 00:18:31,617 Fuck ! 245 00:18:31,682 --> 00:18:33,334 What ? 246 00:18:34,354 --> 00:18:36,534 I, um... 247 00:18:38,283 --> 00:18:40,467 I picked up the programs. 248 00:18:44,161 --> 00:18:45,767 Thank you. 249 00:18:46,959 --> 00:18:48,358 Thanks. 250 00:18:50,931 --> 00:18:53,274 - Ted Fairwell. - Hi, it's Claire. 251 00:18:53,405 --> 00:18:55,786 Hey, how are you ? 252 00:18:56,537 --> 00:18:57,800 I'm bad. 253 00:19:00,438 --> 00:19:02,950 My brother is dead. 254 00:19:04,250 --> 00:19:06,213 Oh my god. 255 00:19:06,692 --> 00:19:08,119 What happened ? 256 00:19:08,241 --> 00:19:11,945 Uh, I kind of have to get out of here and, um... 257 00:19:12,241 --> 00:19:14,720 I don't think I can drive. 258 00:19:15,335 --> 00:19:17,753 Are you like really busy ? 259 00:19:19,077 --> 00:19:20,601 No. 260 00:19:20,673 --> 00:19:22,167 No. 261 00:19:22,917 --> 00:19:24,448 I'll be right over. 262 00:19:28,898 --> 00:19:31,114 - Jesus christ ! - Roger ? 263 00:19:31,917 --> 00:19:33,358 You trashed me ! 264 00:19:33,377 --> 00:19:34,865 - You two stay here. - I'm gonna kill you, motherfucker ! 265 00:19:34,884 --> 00:19:37,185 God damn it ! River ! 266 00:19:37,673 --> 00:19:39,809 What are you doing ? That was my coomb's kitty ! 267 00:19:39,837 --> 00:19:42,307 "Tit for tat," you said. You got your fucking tit ! 268 00:19:42,326 --> 00:19:43,809 Now where's my cocksucking tat ? 269 00:19:43,828 --> 00:19:46,171 I had to call in a lot of favors to get you that part. 270 00:19:46,208 --> 00:19:48,072 It's not my fault they fired you after the table read ! 271 00:19:48,100 --> 00:19:50,077 I was "marky," man ! 272 00:19:50,152 --> 00:19:51,640 Why didn't you tell them I have the chops ? 273 00:19:51,790 --> 00:19:53,819 - I'm cool ! - I said you were a comic genius. 274 00:19:53,884 --> 00:19:56,912 You think I wasn't embarrassed when they told me you stunk up the place ? 275 00:19:57,002 --> 00:19:59,481 You didn't fight for me. Everyone sells me out 276 00:19:59,499 --> 00:20:01,800 - My fucking life ! - What ? 277 00:20:02,837 --> 00:20:05,363 You need to calm down now ! 278 00:20:05,429 --> 00:20:06,725 Now what am I gonna do ? 279 00:20:06,809 --> 00:20:09,081 I told my mom. I did a mailing ! 280 00:20:09,110 --> 00:20:11,049 Keith, I need you to take him to the Van Nuys airport. 281 00:20:11,078 --> 00:20:12,975 I've got a friend at Warner's letting me use the jet. 282 00:20:13,003 --> 00:20:14,100 I can't go to Van Nuys. 283 00:20:14,101 --> 00:20:15,951 That's a reoccurring on "two and a half men" 284 00:20:15,989 --> 00:20:16,871 I'm perfect for ! 285 00:20:16,872 --> 00:20:19,632 I just want to send him to Cabo till he settles down. 286 00:20:19,670 --> 00:20:22,017 - I've got my kids. - It's fine. Take them with you. 287 00:20:22,064 --> 00:20:23,918 I just wanna show you how good I can be. 288 00:20:24,012 --> 00:20:25,604 Shut up, trevor. You got your shot. 289 00:20:25,632 --> 00:20:28,458 Look, we're on our way to a funeral. David's brother died. 290 00:20:28,637 --> 00:20:30,604 I'm so sorry. That's awful. 291 00:20:30,782 --> 00:20:33,125 - Is there anything I can do ? - You can take care of this yourself. 292 00:20:33,163 --> 00:20:36,266 Oh, I'm sorry, sweetie, but I've been overpaying you for a year. 293 00:20:36,379 --> 00:20:39,069 This is the first time I've really needed you to do something. 294 00:20:39,247 --> 00:20:42,022 Uh, Keith, we've got to get my pants fixed. 295 00:20:42,059 --> 00:20:43,923 You can't go to a funeral without those hemmed. 296 00:20:43,979 --> 00:20:46,289 Leave the boys with me and i'll have my girl do them. 297 00:20:46,515 --> 00:20:48,444 - She's a genius. - I'm t leaving my boys with you ! 298 00:20:48,472 --> 00:20:50,289 We'll hem the pants and drop them off with david. 299 00:20:50,317 --> 00:20:53,256 Please, let me help you help me. 300 00:20:53,684 --> 00:20:56,393 Keith, I'm a good father. I can handle two kids for an hour. 301 00:20:57,125 --> 00:20:58,191 Okay. 302 00:20:58,219 --> 00:21:00,303 But don't talk to 'em too much. 303 00:21:00,548 --> 00:21:02,853 - Can we have beer ? - No ! 304 00:21:04,364 --> 00:21:06,956 - Have we met somewhere ? - No ! Shut up ! 305 00:21:10,998 --> 00:21:13,017 Oh, sweetie. 306 00:21:16,214 --> 00:21:17,444 My god. 307 00:21:17,519 --> 00:21:19,585 Damn, you've had a shitty year. 308 00:21:23,012 --> 00:21:25,219 - I got your dress. - Thanks. 309 00:21:25,256 --> 00:21:27,914 They swore to me it would fit. 310 00:21:28,008 --> 00:21:30,285 And I picked up one for maya. 311 00:21:30,548 --> 00:21:33,116 And I brought some lox and vodka. 312 00:21:33,200 --> 00:21:35,740 Great. I can't drink. Lox has mercury. 313 00:21:35,834 --> 00:21:39,031 Oh, please, a couple shots of stoli won't kill the baby. 314 00:21:39,087 --> 00:21:41,590 You know, in my day we used to sit on our ass 315 00:21:41,627 --> 00:21:43,594 Smoking parl iaments for nine months. 316 00:21:43,707 --> 00:21:47,430 Today, you have one piece of brie and everybody goes berserk. 317 00:21:49,871 --> 00:21:51,247 Come on, sweetheart. 318 00:21:51,425 --> 00:21:53,055 Here, have some of this. It'll take the edge off. 319 00:21:53,083 --> 00:21:55,073 I don't wanna take the edgoff. 320 00:21:57,881 --> 00:22:00,191 I guess I'm just blathering on like an idiot. 321 00:22:00,350 --> 00:22:02,684 I don't know what to say, honey. 322 00:22:02,749 --> 00:22:04,763 I'm just so sorry. 323 00:22:08,285 --> 00:22:09,834 Hello, you. 324 00:22:10,106 --> 00:22:11,886 How are you, maya ? 325 00:22:11,979 --> 00:22:13,576 I think she's a little confused. 326 00:22:13,613 --> 00:22:15,557 Where's my daddy ? 327 00:22:15,637 --> 00:22:18,632 Oh, god ! I don't- 328 00:22:22,177 --> 00:22:24,172 Your daddy... 329 00:22:24,435 --> 00:22:27,012 Has gone away for a very long time. 330 00:22:27,050 --> 00:22:29,332 Mom, you can't say that ! 331 00:22:29,998 --> 00:22:32,369 Honey, daddy's dead. 332 00:22:32,425 --> 00:22:34,430 That means that he's not coming back ever. 333 00:22:34,458 --> 00:22:37,416 Brenda ! Jesus ! You know, soften it up a little. 334 00:22:37,454 --> 00:22:39,435 That's what #s the book said to do. I even went online. 335 00:22:39,454 --> 00:22:42,026 They all say you have to be clear or she gets confused. 336 00:22:42,224 --> 00:22:44,069 When is daddy coming back ? 337 00:22:44,116 --> 00:22:45,491 Daddy's dead. 338 00:22:45,641 --> 00:22:47,651 Remember, like, nemo's mom ? 339 00:22:48,055 --> 00:22:49,721 Remember how we talked about that ? 340 00:22:51,083 --> 00:22:52,102 You know what, Brenda ? 341 00:22:52,139 --> 00:22:54,951 I think you should save this discussion 342 00:22:54,989 --> 00:22:56,693 For a time when you're less insane with grief. 343 00:22:56,712 --> 00:22:59,515 I'm not insane with grief, mom ! 344 00:22:59,810 --> 00:23:01,407 Sweetie, you go on. 345 00:23:01,444 --> 00:23:03,585 Go ahead, play with your toys, sweetheart. 346 00:23:03,670 --> 00:23:06,069 Have you talked to billy ? He's not returning my calls. 347 00:23:06,313 --> 00:23:09,707 Oh, I suppose he's still in dubal. 348 00:23:09,829 --> 00:23:12,181 Jesus, I hope they haven't taken him hostage. 349 00:23:12,209 --> 00:23:13,829 He's not very docile. 350 00:23:13,932 --> 00:23:15,843 I'm sure he hasn't been taken hostage, mom. 351 00:23:15,975 --> 00:23:18,599 You're right. It's just that I'm a wreck. 352 00:23:19,209 --> 00:23:21,125 I can't believe we're both widows. 353 00:23:21,153 --> 00:23:22,623 It's just so horrifying. 354 00:23:23,017 --> 00:23:24,773 At least you've got olivier. 355 00:23:25,158 --> 00:23:27,454 Well, he walked out on me last week. 356 00:23:29,707 --> 00:23:32,083 You know, I didn't want to make today about me, but... 357 00:23:32,778 --> 00:23:36,458 The truth is, I want to fucking kill myself. 358 00:23:37,458 --> 00:23:41,148 I mean, god, the pain is just searing. 359 00:23:44,806 --> 00:23:47,928 I know it's not the same. 360 00:23:48,003 --> 00:23:50,665 But we're both alone now. 361 00:23:50,853 --> 00:23:52,416 No, it's not the same. 362 00:23:52,566 --> 00:23:54,548 Not at all. 363 00:23:54,792 --> 00:23:58,209 So... are we going anywhere in particular ? 364 00:23:58,881 --> 00:24:00,313 No. 365 00:24:01,876 --> 00:24:03,519 Do you mind just driving ? 366 00:24:04,778 --> 00:24:06,379 I don't mind. 367 00:24:10,998 --> 00:24:12,519 What is this, a mix ? 368 00:24:12,688 --> 00:24:14,430 Yeah. 369 00:24:14,721 --> 00:24:16,801 I love "top 40." 370 00:24:17,026 --> 00:24:20,271 I'm sorry, but it just sounds so good sometimes. 371 00:24:31,794 --> 00:24:33,024 I don't know why I keep thinking about 372 00:24:33,061 --> 00:24:35,944 These stupid fights I had with my brother, 373 00:24:37,000 --> 00:24:40,695 Not like any of the good times, or whatever. 374 00:24:40,972 --> 00:24:43,845 - Isn't that horrible ? - No. 375 00:24:45,118 --> 00:24:47,338 I can't think of anything nice about my sister. 376 00:24:47,385 --> 00:24:49,474 But I like Nate. 377 00:24:49,681 --> 00:24:52,132 I mean, you know I did. 378 00:24:55,005 --> 00:24:58,939 - What are you thinking of ? - Just weird things. 379 00:24:59,338 --> 00:25:01,103 Like this time, um... 380 00:25:01,592 --> 00:25:03,780 It was right after my dad died. 381 00:25:04,728 --> 00:25:07,122 I had to write this idiotic english paper 382 00:25:07,953 --> 00:25:11,507 Where you're supposed to interview 383 00:25:11,545 --> 00:25:14,967 The person in your family that you knew the least. 384 00:25:15,564 --> 00:25:17,244 My dad was dead. 385 00:25:17,329 --> 00:25:20,911 And it was pretty much a toss-up between those two anyway. 386 00:25:22,897 --> 00:25:27,254 Until I asked nate if I could, uh... 387 00:25:28,113 --> 00:25:31,409 Interview him, and he said no. 388 00:25:33,212 --> 00:25:35,386 It was not like it was some big traumatic thing. 389 00:25:35,414 --> 00:25:37,376 It was just... 390 00:25:40,348 --> 00:25:41,672 I'm sorry. 391 00:25:42,217 --> 00:25:44,357 I'm sorry. This is so gross. 392 00:25:44,555 --> 00:25:47,522 It's okay. It's okay. 393 00:25:49,231 --> 00:25:51,200 It's okay. 394 00:25:52,339 --> 00:25:55,376 I don't know why I keep thinking about that time ! 395 00:25:58,555 --> 00:26:01,691 Thank you for being so flexible. Okay. Bye-Bye. 396 00:26:01,789 --> 00:26:03,803 Can you zip me ? 397 00:26:05,564 --> 00:26:06,437 Where's angie ? 398 00:26:06,456 --> 00:26:08,273 She called. She's gonna be 10 minutes late. 399 00:26:08,310 --> 00:26:10,907 - That's 20 minutes. Fuck ! - Hey. 400 00:26:11,029 --> 00:26:14,418 - The kids can hear you. - What's gonna happen with the business 401 00:26:14,822 --> 00:26:17,309 Now that there's no one to stop david from spending 300 grand 402 00:26:17,310 --> 00:26:18,202 on a crematorium ? 403 00:26:18,231 --> 00:26:20,785 What's wrong with you ? This is what you're thinking about ? 404 00:26:20,827 --> 00:26:22,526 Do you know how little savings we have ? 405 00:26:22,573 --> 00:26:24,583 What if something were to happen to me ? What would you do ? 406 00:26:24,667 --> 00:26:27,301 - You and the kids, what would you have ? - Nothing is gonna happen to you. 407 00:26:27,339 --> 00:26:30,015 How do you know ? Something could happen to you ! 408 00:26:30,165 --> 00:26:31,650 - We still don't have any life insurance. 409 00:26:31,651 --> 00:26:33,663 Okay, we'll get it tomorrow. 410 00:26:33,766 --> 00:26:34,977 Where is she ? 411 00:26:35,080 --> 00:26:38,489 Did she need to get her outfit right for baby-sitting ? 412 00:26:38,517 --> 00:26:40,470 You want to go ahead of me ? 413 00:26:40,799 --> 00:26:42,691 - Is that okay ? - Yeah. 414 00:26:42,785 --> 00:26:46,123 Okay. Uh, then I'll see you there. 415 00:26:46,376 --> 00:26:47,944 Okay. 416 00:27:03,606 --> 00:27:04,695 He's not there. 417 00:27:04,742 --> 00:27:06,273 Yes, he is too. 418 00:27:07,226 --> 00:27:09,813 Wow, you guys look great. 419 00:27:09,907 --> 00:27:11,555 How do you like the length ? 420 00:27:11,724 --> 00:27:12,559 It's perfect. 421 00:27:12,616 --> 00:27:15,808 David, I am so sorry about your brother. 422 00:27:15,902 --> 00:27:17,935 Thank you. Where's Keith ? 423 00:27:20,723 --> 00:27:22,751 We had a situation. 424 00:27:22,864 --> 00:27:24,793 I'm so sorry, 425 00:27:24,859 --> 00:27:26,662 But he just threw this guy at me. 426 00:27:26,859 --> 00:27:28,563 I just got to get him on a plane and then I can go. 427 00:27:28,629 --> 00:27:30,981 Well, couldn't you just say no today ? 428 00:27:31,019 --> 00:27:32,465 I know. I'm sorry. 429 00:27:32,568 --> 00:27:35,145 But I swear I'll be there soon, okay ? 430 00:27:35,671 --> 00:27:37,174 David ! 431 00:27:40,854 --> 00:27:42,699 This is total bullshit, man. 432 00:27:42,774 --> 00:27:44,554 I've got to get out of here. 433 00:27:46,812 --> 00:27:48,798 Hey, I know where I know you from. 434 00:27:48,911 --> 00:27:51,183 You're that guy in the blowjob video. 435 00:27:51,333 --> 00:27:53,563 Sorry, wrong guy. 436 00:27:53,779 --> 00:27:55,624 You are too, man. 437 00:27:55,765 --> 00:27:59,455 - The one where Roger's giving you head. - A video ? 438 00:27:59,544 --> 00:28:02,310 Dude, I've seen it like 20 times. 439 00:28:02,375 --> 00:28:04,502 Roger played it every time we had sex. 440 00:28:04,559 --> 00:28:05,995 He can't come without it. 441 00:28:06,070 --> 00:28:09,831 Does he pay you extra for that or is that part of the job ? 442 00:28:14,108 --> 00:28:15,380 Hey, where are you going ? 443 00:28:15,427 --> 00:28:17,512 Hey, hey ! 444 00:28:17,774 --> 00:28:20,361 Where are you going ? 445 00:28:22,366 --> 00:28:23,873 So why don't you like your sister ? 446 00:28:23,920 --> 00:28:26,615 Just the older one, Caroline. 447 00:28:29,807 --> 00:28:31,699 She's just kind of mean. 448 00:28:31,774 --> 00:28:35,070 Which is kind of weird, because she does this noble work 449 00:28:35,155 --> 00:28:36,361 Helping refugees. 450 00:28:36,380 --> 00:28:40,394 So to the world at large she's a saint. 451 00:28:40,451 --> 00:28:42,681 But if you're actually a person in her life, 452 00:28:42,765 --> 00:28:44,582 She's just a bitch. 453 00:28:44,986 --> 00:28:47,676 Like when my little sister was going through chemo 454 00:28:47,723 --> 00:28:51,634 Caroline came by to help her like twice... 455 00:28:53,192 --> 00:28:55,972 In three years. 456 00:28:55,995 --> 00:28:58,634 That is pretty bad. 457 00:28:58,915 --> 00:29:00,296 Is your other sister okay ? 458 00:29:00,333 --> 00:29:02,371 Yeah. Betsy. 459 00:29:03,925 --> 00:29:06,033 She was lucky. 460 00:29:08,075 --> 00:29:09,756 That's good. 461 00:29:19,859 --> 00:29:21,906 I have to go back. 462 00:29:22,587 --> 00:29:25,685 Okay. Okay. 463 00:29:30,939 --> 00:29:32,742 There you are. 464 00:29:33,469 --> 00:29:35,131 How are you ? 465 00:29:37,347 --> 00:29:39,709 Thanks for making it. 466 00:29:41,310 --> 00:29:42,995 Are the boys okay ? 467 00:29:43,051 --> 00:29:44,690 They're upstairs in a state of bliss. 468 00:29:44,718 --> 00:29:47,394 Roger bought them iPods. 469 00:29:59,774 --> 00:30:02,047 God wh take someone's son 470 00:30:02,225 --> 00:30:05,144 At the one moment they were ever in their whole lives 471 00:30:05,145 --> 00:30:06,864 not able to be with him ? 472 00:30:07,014 --> 00:30:09,774 What kind of a message is that ? 473 00:30:10,084 --> 00:30:13,394 I don't think it's helpful to see it as a message to you. 474 00:30:13,488 --> 00:30:15,164 Then why would it happen that way ? 475 00:30:15,267 --> 00:30:18,202 Unless there really is no god. 476 00:30:18,408 --> 00:30:21,202 It's natural to be angry. 477 00:30:21,502 --> 00:30:24,887 But maybe it's best to view god as a light 478 00:30:24,934 --> 00:30:28,629 Through this dark time, as opposed to seeing him as the cause of it. 479 00:30:28,657 --> 00:30:32,436 - God is an asshole ! - Yes, god is a huge asshole ! 480 00:30:32,479 --> 00:30:35,652 And I fucking hate him for this. 481 00:30:38,770 --> 00:30:41,418 We're gonna get you through this, honey, all right ? 482 00:30:41,873 --> 00:30:45,784 You're not alone. You're not alone. 483 00:31:40,786 --> 00:31:43,133 You could've dressed. 484 00:31:44,267 --> 00:31:45,986 I couldn't. 485 00:31:47,235 --> 00:31:49,615 The rest of us managed. 486 00:31:49,915 --> 00:31:52,767 Well, the rest of you win. 487 00:32:11,467 --> 00:32:14,012 I think we're all in shock. 488 00:32:16,671 --> 00:32:18,971 Three years ago... 489 00:32:19,197 --> 00:32:21,633 We prayed for Nate's life. 490 00:32:22,646 --> 00:32:25,707 And we thought our prayers were answered. 491 00:32:25,933 --> 00:32:27,548 Now, we have to pray 492 00:32:27,623 --> 00:32:30,984 For help making sense of this loss. 493 00:32:31,369 --> 00:32:33,552 Because... 494 00:32:34,355 --> 00:32:36,693 We've lost a lot- 495 00:32:38,064 --> 00:32:39,811 A son... 496 00:32:40,078 --> 00:32:41,674 A father... 497 00:32:41,881 --> 00:32:43,538 A brother... 498 00:32:43,980 --> 00:32:46,003 A husband... 499 00:32:46,350 --> 00:32:47,703 A colleague... 500 00:32:50,613 --> 00:32:53,313 To me an inspiration. 501 00:32:53,792 --> 00:32:56,735 He had a natural sense... 502 00:32:58,468 --> 00:33:02,097 He had a natural sense of what to say to people when they were grieving. 503 00:33:02,219 --> 00:33:05,961 And, uh, I just think he'd know what to say to help us... 504 00:33:06,759 --> 00:33:10,679 If only he where here. Thank you. 505 00:33:42,045 --> 00:33:45,238 I'm david fisher and nate was my big brother. 506 00:33:46,731 --> 00:33:49,566 When we were kids I used to get picked on at school. 507 00:33:49,820 --> 00:33:52,022 I had come home with my face 508 00:33:52,163 --> 00:33:54,299 Or my pride bruise 509 00:33:54,402 --> 00:33:57,280 And nate would make me tell him who did it. 510 00:33:57,346 --> 00:34:00,228 And he would go talk to whoever was tormenting me. 511 00:34:00,257 --> 00:34:02,266 And I'd be fine- 512 00:34:10,190 --> 00:34:13,711 Until it happened again. So Nate came up with another strategy. 513 00:34:13,739 --> 00:34:15,171 He said... 514 00:34:15,500 --> 00:34:18,256 "When they start in on you just laugh, laugh at them. 515 00:34:18,293 --> 00:34:20,575 Even if they hit you, laugh." 516 00:34:20,716 --> 00:34:22,439 Well, I could never pull that off. 517 00:34:22,495 --> 00:34:23,833 But that was Nate. 518 00:34:23,889 --> 00:34:27,054 He could laugh at anything and people were always drawn to him, 519 00:34:27,115 --> 00:34:30,598 Because he could make the best of the worst situation. 520 00:34:40,260 --> 00:34:42,566 Even when life hit him, 521 00:34:42,669 --> 00:34:44,655 It couldn't ki- 522 00:34:45,059 --> 00:34:46,608 Ki- 523 00:35:17,138 --> 00:35:19,486 My name is George Sibley. 524 00:35:19,634 --> 00:35:22,179 I was Nate's stepfather. 525 00:35:22,320 --> 00:35:24,601 This is a hard day. 526 00:35:26,887 --> 00:35:29,582 And we're all very upset. 527 00:35:34,164 --> 00:35:38,488 The loss of a young person is always a terrible blow. 528 00:35:39,615 --> 00:35:41,883 But in this case... 529 00:35:42,052 --> 00:35:43,183 It-It's even more cruel, 530 00:35:43,230 --> 00:35:46,399 Because nate was an idealist. 531 00:35:47,113 --> 00:35:49,141 And... 532 00:35:49,563 --> 00:35:51,765 He struggled... 533 00:35:52,939 --> 00:35:55,103 All through his life... 534 00:35:56,338 --> 00:35:58,272 To be a good man. 535 00:35:59,366 --> 00:36:00,817 He wasn't perfect, 536 00:36:00,892 --> 00:36:02,817 But then who among us is ? 537 00:36:03,239 --> 00:36:05,836 And he never gave up on himself... 538 00:36:07,718 --> 00:36:09,714 The people he loved... 539 00:36:11,352 --> 00:36:13,437 Or even love itself, 540 00:36:13,634 --> 00:36:16,972 In all its vexing, beautiful forms. 541 00:36:26,047 --> 00:36:27,390 Oh, claire. 542 00:36:27,446 --> 00:36:29,648 There's too much cold cuts out there already. 543 00:36:29,704 --> 00:36:32,690 Here, take this scary fruit cake instead. 544 00:36:43,587 --> 00:36:46,400 How're you feeling ? 545 00:36:47,962 --> 00:36:49,756 Okay. 546 00:36:51,408 --> 00:36:53,310 I should go back downstairs. 547 00:36:53,488 --> 00:36:56,160 It's all right if you need to rest. 548 00:36:57,023 --> 00:36:59,836 You can go down if you want. 549 00:37:00,202 --> 00:37:03,267 I want to stay with you. 550 00:37:12,277 --> 00:37:14,976 I'm sorry for what I said. 551 00:37:15,249 --> 00:37:17,582 I'm sorry. 552 00:37:18,023 --> 00:37:20,826 You lost him too. 553 00:37:25,127 --> 00:37:28,587 You and I are really the most alike, you know ? 554 00:37:30,873 --> 00:37:32,723 And sometimes maybe... 555 00:37:32,836 --> 00:37:35,000 It makes it hard. 556 00:37:42,028 --> 00:37:43,343 Hey. 557 00:37:43,483 --> 00:37:45,164 - Hey. - Hey. 558 00:37:45,333 --> 00:37:47,507 - How's it going ? - Okay. 559 00:37:47,760 --> 00:37:50,723 Many questions. 560 00:37:56,407 --> 00:37:58,069 Hey, honey. 561 00:37:58,491 --> 00:38:00,585 - Hey. - Did you go ? 562 00:38:00,885 --> 00:38:02,759 No. 563 00:38:05,792 --> 00:38:08,961 Maya, why didn't you tell somebody you needed to go potty ? 564 00:38:09,101 --> 00:38:11,679 Do I have to get you a diaper ? 565 00:38:11,834 --> 00:38:13,571 God, she's been doing this for months. 566 00:38:13,627 --> 00:38:15,721 Sometimes they regress when they're upset. 567 00:38:15,829 --> 00:38:18,735 Oh God ! We're going to the cemetery in like two minutes. 568 00:38:18,782 --> 00:38:21,439 You know what ? I'll clean her up. You just go. Don't worry. 569 00:38:22,054 --> 00:38:23,547 - Thanks. - Yup. 570 00:38:31,177 --> 00:38:33,655 Just trying to keep things tidy. 571 00:38:33,853 --> 00:38:35,707 Thank you. 572 00:38:36,734 --> 00:38:39,167 We're leaving for the cemetery soon. 573 00:38:39,234 --> 00:38:42,834 - It's just going to be family. - I understand. 574 00:38:42,901 --> 00:38:46,501 Would you care to join us ? 575 00:38:46,567 --> 00:38:49,501 Yes. Very much. 576 00:38:51,100 --> 00:38:54,033 I wouldn't want joy to come 577 00:38:54,100 --> 00:38:56,300 If she happens to be here somewhere. 578 00:38:56,367 --> 00:38:58,167 She's not here. 579 00:38:58,234 --> 00:39:01,067 I have no idea where she is... 580 00:39:01,133 --> 00:39:03,100 Ever... 581 00:39:03,167 --> 00:39:04,934 Anymore. 582 00:39:11,434 --> 00:39:12,834 Here you go. Hey, claire. 583 00:39:12,901 --> 00:39:14,567 You can ride with david and keith. 584 00:39:14,634 --> 00:39:16,901 George is driving ruth, maggie and sarah. 585 00:39:16,968 --> 00:39:18,968 Riding with your mom ? 586 00:39:19,033 --> 00:39:20,667 Uh, no, she's not going. 587 00:39:20,734 --> 00:39:22,767 Well, you can ride with me and nate. 588 00:39:22,834 --> 00:39:24,334 No, I'll drive myself, thanks. 589 00:39:24,400 --> 00:39:27,267 I don't think you should do that. There's room with david. 590 00:39:27,334 --> 00:39:28,934 - I'm fine, really. - Okay. 591 00:39:29,000 --> 00:39:33,534 Well, listen, here are the directions and my cell phone 592 00:39:33,601 --> 00:39:35,567 In case you get lost or something. 593 00:39:35,634 --> 00:39:37,567 Thanks. 594 00:39:37,634 --> 00:39:39,634 Don't forget this. 595 00:40:22,300 --> 00:40:24,234 God damn it ! 596 00:40:24,300 --> 00:40:26,367 David, are you okay ? 597 00:40:28,133 --> 00:40:29,868 David ? 598 00:40:29,934 --> 00:40:31,601 I can't go out there right now. 599 00:40:31,667 --> 00:40:34,567 - What do you mean ? - You go. 600 00:40:34,634 --> 00:40:36,334 Look, I'll be out there in a minute. 601 00:40:36,400 --> 00:40:39,434 - I can stay with you. - No, just give me a minute ! 602 00:40:39,501 --> 00:40:41,534 Okay. 603 00:40:50,701 --> 00:40:53,100 There's no coffin ? 604 00:40:53,167 --> 00:40:55,000 He didn't want one. 605 00:40:55,067 --> 00:40:57,434 It's more natural this way. 606 00:41:01,033 --> 00:41:03,434 Where's david ? 607 00:41:03,501 --> 00:41:06,400 I think the three of us can handle this. 608 00:41:15,701 --> 00:41:17,801 Oh, man. 609 00:41:30,901 --> 00:41:32,701 Where do we put him ? 610 00:41:32,767 --> 00:41:35,767 Uh, on the ground, I guess. 611 00:41:35,834 --> 00:41:38,667 Won't he get dirty ? 612 00:41:39,734 --> 00:41:42,601 Dust to dust. 613 00:41:51,200 --> 00:41:55,534 - Wasn't there a poem he wanted read ? - Where's david ? 614 00:41:55,601 --> 00:41:58,267 I think he's just a little too upset, ruth. 615 00:41:58,334 --> 00:42:00,767 We're all upset. 616 00:42:00,834 --> 00:42:03,033 That's right, sweetie. We're all fucking upset. 617 00:42:03,100 --> 00:42:05,601 Sometimes we can't be everywhere we want to be. 618 00:42:05,667 --> 00:42:08,534 Yes, well, sometimes we can. 619 00:42:20,601 --> 00:42:22,300 Oh, god ! 620 00:42:29,601 --> 00:42:31,601 David ? 621 00:42:38,234 --> 00:42:41,567 We're starting the ceremony now. 622 00:42:42,901 --> 00:42:45,400 I can't. 623 00:42:47,467 --> 00:42:51,200 If you don't get out of this car, you will hate yourself forever. 624 00:42:51,267 --> 00:42:53,334 - I know, but I can't. - Yes, you can. 625 00:42:53,400 --> 00:42:55,300 You have legs. 626 00:42:56,934 --> 00:42:59,200 I am not doing this without you. 627 00:42:59,267 --> 00:43:01,467 Mom, please, I'm so dizzy I can't breathe. 628 00:43:06,934 --> 00:43:09,801 Well, we'll wait until you can. 629 00:44:01,767 --> 00:44:03,501 Could someone ? 630 00:44:28,033 --> 00:44:31,734 From the "mystic odes" of rumi. 631 00:44:33,167 --> 00:44:37,534 "Our death is our wedding with eternity. 632 00:44:37,601 --> 00:44:39,801 What is the secret ? 633 00:44:39,868 --> 00:44:42,267 'God is one.' 634 00:44:42,334 --> 00:44:46,100 The sunlight splits when entering the windows of the house. 635 00:44:46,167 --> 00:44:49,834 This multiplicity exists in the cluster of grapes; 636 00:44:49,901 --> 00:44:53,367 It is not in the juice made from the grapes. 637 00:44:53,434 --> 00:44:56,067 For he who is living in the light of god, 638 00:44:56,133 --> 00:45:00,534 The death of the carnal soul is a blessing. 639 00:45:00,601 --> 00:45:03,901 Regarding him say neither bad nor good 640 00:45:03,968 --> 00:45:08,334 For he has gone beyond the good and the bad. 641 00:45:08,400 --> 00:45:13,601 Fix your eyes on god and do not talk about what is invisible, 642 00:45:13,667 --> 00:45:17,334 So that he may place another look in your eyes.'" 643 00:45:17,400 --> 00:45:20,634 * what else should I be ? * 644 00:45:22,200 --> 00:45:25,133 * all apologies. * 645 00:45:26,934 --> 00:45:29,834 Nate ? 646 00:45:31,334 --> 00:45:33,100 Hey. 647 00:45:37,033 --> 00:45:39,534 Kurt cobain died today. 648 00:45:39,601 --> 00:45:41,400 Oh. 649 00:45:41,467 --> 00:45:43,367 He killed himself. 650 00:45:43,434 --> 00:45:46,467 He was just too pure for this world. 651 00:45:47,901 --> 00:45:50,701 Well, his music will live on. 652 00:45:52,200 --> 00:45:53,534 Yeah. 653 00:45:53,601 --> 00:45:55,868 Yeah, it will. 654 00:46:00,234 --> 00:46:04,000 - You wanna try some ? - Yeah. 655 00:46:06,067 --> 00:46:10,434 "It is the eternal light which is the light of god. 656 00:46:10,501 --> 00:46:13,767 The ephemeral light is an attribute of the body 657 00:46:13,834 --> 00:46:16,634 And the flesh. 658 00:46:16,701 --> 00:46:21,634 ...oh god, who gives the grace of vision. 659 00:46:21,701 --> 00:46:24,767 The bird of vision is flying toward you 660 00:46:26,267 --> 00:46:29,567 With the wings of desire." 661 00:46:49,601 --> 00:46:52,000 One, two... 662 00:46:52,067 --> 00:46:55,100 Oh, shit ! Sorry. 663 00:47:00,601 --> 00:47:02,934 Thanks, claire. 664 00:47:09,467 --> 00:47:11,467 One, two, three. Easy. 665 00:47:14,267 --> 00:47:14,400 Easy. 666 00:47:16,200 --> 00:47:17,567 Okay. 667 00:49:27,234 --> 00:49:30,467 Did you like the poem I chose ? 668 00:49:30,534 --> 00:49:33,067 No, I hated it. Mystical maudlin crap. 669 00:49:33,133 --> 00:49:35,767 You just don't understand it. 670 00:49:35,834 --> 00:49:38,701 I'm about 20 times smarter than you. I understood it. 671 00:49:38,767 --> 00:49:40,467 It's not about being smart, brenda. 672 00:49:40,534 --> 00:49:43,167 It's about having spiritual depth. Maggie understood it. 673 00:49:43,400 --> 00:49:45,634 Maggie's a mealy-Mouthed little cunt. 674 00:49:45,701 --> 00:49:47,667 She couldn't even admit she fucked you ! 675 00:49:47,734 --> 00:49:49,934 Maybe she doesn't wanna pollute what she and I shared 676 00:49:50,000 --> 00:49:51,934 By handing it over to your filthy imagination- 677 00:49:52,000 --> 00:49:54,734 What you shared ? Adultery while your wife's pregnant 678 00:49:54,801 --> 00:49:56,567 And raising your child from another woman ? 679 00:49:56,634 --> 00:49:59,601 You will always think of maya that way, won't you ? 680 00:49:59,667 --> 00:50:01,734 Even when she's calling you mommy you think, 681 00:50:01,801 --> 00:50:03,634 "I'm stuck raising some dead bitch's kid." 682 00:50:03,701 --> 00:50:05,400 No, I'm a good mother to her. 683 00:50:05,467 --> 00:50:08,367 You were a great mother when you yelled at her for having an accident. 684 00:50:08,434 --> 00:50:10,000 I didn't mean to yell at her. 685 00:50:10,067 --> 00:50:12,267 You just wanted me to plug you with your own baby, 686 00:50:12,334 --> 00:50:13,634 And now you've got that. 687 00:50:13,701 --> 00:50:15,534 So you can drop the wronged-Little-Wife routine. 688 00:50:15,601 --> 00:50:18,133 - Why are you saying this ? - You could've married joe 689 00:50:18,200 --> 00:50:20,400 If you wanted to be with somebody who wanted to be with you. 690 00:50:20,467 --> 00:50:23,467 But deep down, you know that anybody who wants to be with you 691 00:50:23,534 --> 00:50:25,400 - Is a fucking idiot. - Shut up ! 692 00:50:25,467 --> 00:50:27,601 Because just like everybody else in your psychotic family 693 00:50:27,667 --> 00:50:29,701 You have to destroy everything and everyone you love ! 694 00:50:29,767 --> 00:50:31,767 Please, leave me alone ! 695 00:50:31,834 --> 00:50:34,701 Okay, just leave me alone ! 696 00:50:40,634 --> 00:50:42,801 We brought you some alphabet soup. 697 00:50:42,868 --> 00:50:45,234 It was all we had. 698 00:50:45,300 --> 00:50:47,334 Oh, thank you. 699 00:50:49,000 --> 00:50:49,100 I even loaded some smooth jazz onto my ipod for you to listen to. 700 00:50:53,367 --> 00:50:55,000 Wow, thanks. 701 00:50:55,067 --> 00:50:58,334 I had no idea you guys were such good nurses. 702 00:50:59,601 --> 00:51:01,501 Yeah, well. 703 00:51:01,567 --> 00:51:03,601 You learn something new every day. 704 00:51:03,667 --> 00:51:06,000 I'm gonna come over there and destroy you ! 705 00:51:06,067 --> 00:51:07,834 Yeah, you do. 706 00:51:07,901 --> 00:51:10,534 I don't care where they found him, roger ! Okay, I quit ! 707 00:51:10,601 --> 00:51:12,534 Uh-Oh. 708 00:51:12,601 --> 00:51:14,200 No ! You are one sick dude ! 709 00:51:14,267 --> 00:51:16,734 I don't want to be anywhere near you ever again ! 710 00:51:16,801 --> 00:51:19,400 He's not gonna take the ipods away, is he ? 711 00:51:19,501 --> 00:51:22,467 - I'm serious, roger ! I've had it with you ! - I hope not. 712 00:51:22,534 --> 00:51:24,734 I need my smooth jazz. 713 00:51:24,801 --> 00:51:27,167 You better eat that while it's hot. 714 00:51:30,601 --> 00:51:33,667 I forget how anyone gets over anything. 715 00:51:34,767 --> 00:51:37,067 You don't really. 716 00:51:37,133 --> 00:51:38,734 Don't say that. You do. 717 00:51:39,200 --> 00:51:41,167 It's just time. 718 00:51:41,234 --> 00:51:44,033 And remembing love, really. 719 00:51:44,100 --> 00:51:46,033 What the hell does that mean ? 720 00:51:46,100 --> 00:51:49,133 Slowly you fall back in love 721 00:51:49,200 --> 00:51:52,634 With whatever really mattered to you. 722 00:51:52,701 --> 00:51:57,834 Yes, and maybe you find a way 723 00:51:57,901 --> 00:52:00,868 To make sense of what you've lost. 724 00:52:00,934 --> 00:52:03,901 That doesn't seem possible. 725 00:52:07,400 --> 00:52:08,868 Honey... 726 00:52:10,534 --> 00:52:12,934 I don't want to freak you out... 727 00:52:14,400 --> 00:52:17,267 But last night... 728 00:52:17,334 --> 00:52:20,133 Uh, nate appeared to me in a dream. 729 00:52:20,200 --> 00:52:21,834 He did ? 730 00:52:21,901 --> 00:52:24,667 - Mm. - What did he say ? 731 00:52:26,033 --> 00:52:28,834 He didn't really say anything. 732 00:52:28,901 --> 00:52:33,033 But he had a very loving presence. 733 00:52:33,100 --> 00:52:35,334 Was he with someone ? 734 00:52:35,400 --> 00:52:37,434 He-He was with me, I guess. 735 00:52:37,501 --> 00:52:41,801 Are you sure he didn't say anything about death ? 736 00:52:41,868 --> 00:52:44,868 Well, he didn't have to say it, sweetie. 737 00:52:44,934 --> 00:52:47,133 I got the message. 738 00:53:04,300 --> 00:53:06,000 Oh. 739 00:53:06,067 --> 00:53:08,100 Hello, dear. 740 00:53:10,434 --> 00:53:12,868 Grandma ! 741 00:53:12,934 --> 00:53:14,634 Oh, thank you. 742 00:53:15,634 --> 00:53:17,534 Come upstairs, dear. 743 00:53:20,033 --> 00:53:22,701 I can't do this right now. 744 00:53:22,767 --> 00:53:26,701 I need you to take her for - I don't know how long. 745 00:53:26,767 --> 00:53:29,033 - Of course. - Plus, I don't want to make things 746 00:53:29,100 --> 00:53:31,834 Worse for her if I can. 747 00:53:31,901 --> 00:53:34,067 I can't do- 748 00:53:41,734 --> 00:53:44,434 Maya, 749 00:53:44,501 --> 00:53:47,968 You stay with grandma, okay ? 750 00:53:48,033 --> 00:53:50,634 You're gonna have so much fun with grandma. 751 00:53:53,234 --> 00:53:55,434 I love you. 752 00:54:43,734 --> 00:54:45,834 - It's just me. - Fuck ! 753 00:54:45,901 --> 00:54:48,300 Oh, jesus, billy ! 754 00:54:48,367 --> 00:54:50,133 What are you doing ? 755 00:54:51,601 --> 00:54:54,834 I tried to make it back in time for the funeral. 756 00:54:54,901 --> 00:54:57,000 Why didn't you call ? 757 00:54:58,901 --> 00:55:02,267 I thought it was better to just get here. 758 00:55:05,534 --> 00:55:08,000 Oh, god. 759 00:55:22,701 --> 00:56:46,434 * all in all is all we are * 760 00:56:46,501 --> 00:56:51,868 * all and all is all we are. *